Fear in a Handful of Dust





Jesus Christ and Other Swear Words
Volume II, Anxiety Rainbow
Chapter 1,2 or 8, im not sure yet


A continuation of God’s story from Volume I

~15 minutes



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The Man wandered across the desert; only his shadow followed


For days he had walked

And weeks

And months

And years

Across the desert sands of time


Dry Expanse; Waterless Lands; All Sun and No Shelter

He Walks

The desert had always been cruel, this one was no different.

But it did feel special here

Almost like the first time….


Could it be? Could He be here?


The man closed his eyes and meditated on his higher senses. He felt a gentle pull and set walking in that direction.

And the feeling grew stronger...

The man continued walking, there was no end in sight. There never is, there never was.



A spark of hope he tries to starve

Its has been a long long time

The Man did not desire hope



The man sets the box down and sits to rest and pulls off his sandals

He grabs his goatskin waterpouch and drinks deeply.

Clasping it shut, he looks down.
















Moseses feet were fucking gross

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He puts his sandals back on and started again - onward, towards the feeling of The Hebe Tingle

Miles and Miles he walked

The sun sets and the moon rises.

Cayotee Howls and other desert noises

Ambiance

Miles and Miles more and more

Until the ground began to change

Glass glittered from the darkened earth

Brittle layers of frozen crystal across the surface of sand marked his every step

small spires of shimmering green rock dotted the landscape en guttaté

Moses scooped and studied these specimens. They resonated with God's power

He must be here

His Hebe Sense Tingled So FUCKIN HARD

Moses walked deeper into the enchanted desert embracing that ember of hope into a fire of a future Certain. HE IS HERE. I know it.

He imagined the Promised Land different, but God works in Mysterious Ways

Moses continued until he saw something on the horizon, it was difficult to make out, but seemed to stretch immeasurably

A barrier. Fence wrought of twisted metal adorned with spirals of deterring teeth. Attached to the chain links was a sign full of glyphs he could not read. A strange animal stood on top and watched him with one eye.

Moses stood puzzled for a few minutes before The Roaring Metal Beast came rushing to meet him. Out of its maw came two men



DROP YOUR WEAPONS AND HANDS ON THE GROUND HANDS ON TEH GROUND NOW!



Moses placed his box and his staff on the ground with gentle compliance

A large man dressed like a modern Machabee went to Moses and put a knee in his back

Moses was old and going nowhere

WHAT WERE YOU DOING OUT HERE!??

I was just caugh caugh walking

Cau wandering


HOW DID YOU GET INSIDE?


Caugh get off me man, im old this hurts Caugh


The alphatrooper dug in deeper

CAGAGG IDIDNKTEVENKNOWIWASINSIDE ANDYTHING!

I SWEAR


CAUGH CAGUH



He's just a drifter, Cage.


Yea, but how the hell did he survive so long out here?

I dont know man, maybe he got lost at Burningman or something. Look at him. He's not a threat

Fine, Taze him and throw him in back


Cage unclips his Voltmaster 5000 and fires it up


GZGZGZGZZGZGGZGZGZGZZGG

ominous blue hue of white





“God!?” Were Moses last words



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Moses wakes in a bed, bathed in a most hideous form of light. Moses would later come to know it as Fluorescent. He had just finished compartmentalizing the light anxiety when the door opened.

The Healer Aproached


Hello, my name is Doctor Briggs

Hello Doctor, My name is Moses. I don't remember getting here

Well Mr. Moses, im afraid I have some bad news for you.

Ok….

You will want to lay all the way down for this.

Moses wiggles deeper into the firm hospital bed

Well Mr. Moses, you have Cancer, and Radiation Sickness

How can that be, i've never been sick in my whole long life!

Well, its complicated, but not really. Looks like you wandered through the wrong desert. You were dropped off in the Emergency Bay by an unmarked car. Left unconscious at our doorstep. No ID, only a walking stick and a Box no one could open. We ran a few tests and your vitals were all over our charts. We brought in a specialist and ran some new tests. Damn near broke our geiger counter. It was that rock you had on you that got me thinking. I sent it to the lab and it was authenticated ast Trinitite

Trinitite? Like the Holy Trinity?




Not quite…...




You see Trinitite is a novel crystal cluster created by local mineralogy combined with a 8billionmegaton Nuclear Warhead detonated in the Nevada desert as part of the 1940’s Trinity Tests. You see Mr. Moses, I believe you somehow managed to miss all the fences and wandered straight through to the quarantine radiation zone. Do you remember seeing any fences?

No, I didnt see any fences

So I have cancer?

Yes

What kind?

Yes


You are going to die Mr. Moses and its not going to be pleasant. I want to be real with you. Short of a miracle this is an absolute certainty. I estimate you have about 6 months to live with no treatment

So there's a cure?

Yes and No

Best I can do for you Mr. Moses is put you on the most babybitch drugs with no extra help, followup, and no emotional support offered of any kind. The plan will be designed by our most overworked doctors. They most likely have your correct chart, but this is a busy hospital.Treatment will cost you two years salary and if you die, you still have to pay. 

How will you collect if im dead?

Oh, well just go for your children's money

I don't have any children left

Dont worry, well find someone to collect from

There aren't any other options?

Well not for you sir

What do you mean not for me? Is it because im Jewish?


NO NO NO nothing like that. Its because you are poor


Your saying if I had money I could get the treatment

Yes and if I had a bigger dick maybe she wouldnt have left me

Too little too late, unless you got a best friend Billionaire or something really valuable sittin in that box you've been carrying, It just ain't gonna happen buddy. Sorry to hit you with The Real like this, but You have no assets to leverage and your healthcare only covers the almost-basic-treatment Plan. 

It's not completely terrible, I mean it has most of the corners of a good health plan. You could probably get like an extra 4 or 5 months out of your life feeling like shit and consumed by the anxiety of your crumbling life with absolutely zero emotional support.

Moses begins to weep. Why? I was so Good. I did everything he asked. Eons i have served. Why, why me?

“You shouldnt have breathed the air” said the doctor

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                SHOULD NOT HAVE BREATHED THE AIR!?

THEN WHAT THE ACTUAL FUCK AM I SUPPOSED TO DO IF I GET SICK FROM BREATHING THE AIR. WE ALL BREATHE THE SAME AIR, IDIOT, YOUR TELLING ME ONLY THE WEALTHY CAN AFFORD TO SURVIVE IT?

I'd like to recommend you to a community group that meets on Wednesdays. Its filled with people who breathed the wrong air and got sick. You'll fit right in! It's a cool community, very diverse. Well racially diverse at least. They are all poor people like you. Come from all over! They've got city sickers sick from breathing city air, we've got rural Poors sick from breathing local industry emissions. Hell! They've even got a few x-men like you! So many people went to chernobyl after that HBO series. Have you seen it? Fantastic show.


Moses stormed out of the office furious. 

The doctor stood dumbfounded, he could have sworn that man’s walking stick hissed at him


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The fuck is going on in this world? Moses felt so angry and so weak. His skin felt loose.

He took a left and another left and a right. Stop. Moses stood paralyzed in awe. A city of glittering lights. He strangely recognized some of it. The Sphinx at least…. What is this place?

Sodom, Gamora? There was Sin everywhere.

All manner of freaks and misfits danced and sang

ScarletWomen walked the streets

Men stumbled in drunken stoopers clutching handfuls of money with greed in their eyes

Moses surveyed the sinscape and looked up to a sign illuminated in the devil’s red radiance






Viva Las Vegas!






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Oasis

Perfect, crisp, clean, refreshment to his tired eyes

Moses stumbles forward towards the gently swaying palm trees

The sounds of revel and laughter drift closer

Moses was exhausted. Mentally, physically, emotionally

He shouldered his burden and continued forward as he had done for Millenia

The box was heavy, the responsibility heavier

Moses approached the Oasis ready for reprieve

Just a small break from his endless toil


But one man’s paradise is another's punishment







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“DJ KHALED!”

The Beat Drops

UnsaAsaUnsaAsaUnsaAsa




“DJ KHALED! WELCOME TO THE PAAAAAALMS”

UnsaAsaUnsaAsaUnsaAsaUnsaAsaUnsaAsaUnsaAsaUnsaAsaUnsaAsaUnsaAsa

“I SAID DJ KHALED INDAHOUS!”




The beat shifts




BOOTSNCATSNBOOTSNCATSNBOOTSNCATS

“Whatsup Party PEOPLLLLLLLLLLLLL”

BOOTSNCATSNBOOTSNCATSNBOOTSNCATS





YEEEEEEEEEEWWWWW!! 

screams the crowd, splashing in excitement at The Palms Las Vegas infamous White Pool party.


BOOTSNCATSNBOOTSNCATSNBOOTSNCATS


HOW WE DOING TODAY!

YEEEEEEEEEEWWWWW!


I LOVE LAS VEGAS!!!!




YEEEEEEEEEEWWWWW!!

BOOTSNCATSNBOOTSNCATSNBOOTSNCATS

BOOTSNCATSNDJBOOTSNCATSNBOOTSNCATS

BOOTSNCATSNBOOTSNCATSKHALED!NBOOTSNCATS

BOOTSNCATSNBOOTSNCATSNBOOTSNCATS





Moses grabbed a seat by the pool and whispered to a perky blonde

“I wished we had the mercy of your people. In my day we just killed the Idiots at birth.”


DJ KHALED!



“What?” She responds

I said we used to kill people like him in my country

Oh Kewwwlll, where are you from?

A long long way from here, Moses Replied

She was turned on by his mysterio

Whats in the box? She inquired reaching a hand out

Dont.

His authority was even hotter

Why not? She bats her eyes

It is not meant for your eyes, as beautiful as they are

So wet

HNNNN, Your Cute for an old guy. Whats your name?

“My name is Mo/……. They Call me the Wanderer

No man is beyond the temptation of perky tits

“Wander Me, Daddy” she says biting her lip

Moses leans back into the pool lounger and pulls her into the nook, cradled to his chest, he feels like a man. Arm around her, Moses kicks his feet up

I uhhh, I gotta go

The youthful blonde grabbed her microclutch and walked away in haste




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DJ KHALED!

UnsaAsaUnsaAsaUnsaAsa

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Moses was puzzled, he thought he was spitting some pretty good game, but it has been a long time. Moses was baking in the heat. He took off his sandals and dropped his robe. His linen pantaloons covered his matzaballs (you're a pervert).

He walked the outside of the pool towards a ladder. Whispers of disgust follow him

The rich and beautiful people dressed in all-white trained their eyes and followed his old leathery cracked and calloused gross nasty moses feet.

One foot down the ladder and a panic starts


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GET OUT OF THE POOL ERIC!

JUST FUCKING LEAVE IT!


GO GO!


TIMMY, WHERE IS TIMMY!?


DJ KHALED!



Moses waded forward, parting the Party Sea

Waist deep in the water, He pushed off from the ground and floated on his back, gliding across the pool, his leather swampPiggies breaching the surface.


VOMIT NOISES

MY EYES!




DOES HE STILL HAVE HIS SHOES ON??




THOSE ARE FEET!? 





MARCO!

POL-O’what the FUCK MAN!





DJ KHALED!


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Moses splished and splashed until security came over


Sir, your existence is stressing our guests and damaging our reputation. Im going to have to ask you to leave


This is an Oasis! What gives you the right to kick me out??

Sir, this is The Palms. A private enterprise and we reserve the right to cater to a specific image. One that you do not fit.

But im not hurting anybody?

Its not about that sir, we simply cannot allow you people to dirty our image

YOU PEOPLE? Is this because im Jewish??

Sir, im Jewish. We are kicking you out because you are poor and gross - he said redundantly

That's not very Jewish of you. How about a little compassion man. Im tired, im exhausted, I just found out I have cancer. Let me just have one nice thing.

Look man, dont make this hard. Its not my call. I just work here. I got bills to pay. If it were up to me, you could stay and play, but its not. Now please exit the pool. Also, your feet are fucking nasty man, go get a pedicure. Sorry about the cancer

Moses exited the pool and pulled on his tunic. He grabbed his staff and his box and left The Palms with a bitter taste in his mouth.


Man, Vegas fucking sucks if youre poor, he thought


DJ KHALED!




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Moses

God

Angel



God!?



Moses!?

 NO FUCKIN WAY!!

You look great man, Radiant!


Ive wandered the desert for 30000 years.

I searched for you across The Oceans of Time and Water.

Countries and continents uncountable.

Across the shifting landscapes and rise and fall of empires.

And you are here!?

Performing magic on the Vegas Strip.

What the fuck dude.


Haha hang on buddy, customers.

 Laaaadies! Step forward, behold the magic of Divine

A group of excited tourists stop and cluster

God flurls his robes in dramatic showmanship, stepping towards the group.


What are you doing here?


 Long story man, but ye, just got back from Burningman

needed to make some money, figure I could put my talents to good use.

Entertaining drunks and sinners is good use?

Dude, this world is broken. People are hurting.

I am hurting. God, I need your help. Im sick.

To the backs of a dozen Iphones, God performed his tricks.

Finger snaps and a rabbit appears as if from nowhere



OHHHHHHHHHHH

Yo bro, tag me in that

 its @BeerandCabfare - God says to a young man

Sure thing mister, whats your performer name?

Call me…. God.

A little on the nose their dont ya think? Said Moses

Couldnt have gone with something more subtle?

Hah, what, like Chris Angel?

God, I really need to talk with y…..


“Say My Name”

Chris Angel Steps from nowhere

Howd yall like to see some real MAGIC!!!!


The crowd goes ballistic. The young man deletes his Snapchat of God, unposted and readies his camera for the Real Show.


Hey buddy, this is my corner man


“My Magic Knows No Bounds!” 

Barks Chris Angel as sparks erupt all around him

His muscular arms rise in dramatic gesture

Comeon man, im just here trying to make a buck

Youve got your own club show and everything

Leave some for the rest of us..

God, can we please leave

I have a real problem

A buck you say?

Chris Angle Reaches into God’s donation box

 He removes a single dollar bill

In a blink he crushes the bill in his fist and opens his palm to 4 quarters


HOLY SHIT HOW THE FUCK DID YOU DO THAT?

I Have Cancer

BECAUSE I AM THE MAAAAGIIIC

He held the last two syllables for a long time

More Sparkles around Chris Angel

Whatcha got, Old Man?

“MAGIC FIGHT!” ERUPTS FROM THE CROWD

SO MANY IPHONES STAND READY TO WATCH

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God readies himself and channels his energy. He tries his best to be a showman

Arms straight in a Jesus Christ Pose, God twirls like a helicopter. Faster and faster and faster and faster. The blurr of swirling robes obfuscates the vision of the crowd.

God tucks his arms into his chest, spinning faster and faster, like Tonya Harding.

He arrests his motion in a violent stop and before the crowd, stands tall with TWO rabbits in his arms

“You did that one already”

The crowd is meh

Chris Angel claps

an echo of thunder reverbs across the street

God’s Rabbits are now in his arms

What the….. How the…..?. GIMME BACK MY RABBITS!


But how will you hold them?

With Your Hands…

Chris Angel removes his Sunglasses

Tied.


God looks to his hands. They are shackled in cuffs.

GOD DAMNIT!

IMPOSSIBLE! What are you, Witch?


Thank you, Ladies and Gentelman,

 Come visit me at the Palms anytime

The Crowd goes Nuts

They stay wanting more

God is Furious

Unchain me, Demon

Sure thing buddy, $5 Bucks

God struggles to break the chains impotently

Just pay the man,

God, I need you

Fine

God reaches towards his collection bowl, but it sits empty

What the?

AHAHAHAAHA

Chris Angel fans God’s money in his hands

He closes his fists around the bills and they disappear completely

Lose your Bus money, bitch?

Ok, now your just being mean man. Let me go and give me my money back

Let you go from what?

Chris’s Eyes Dart towards God's hands

God looks down and the shackles are gone

His hands are empty and free

He looks up and Chris Angel is holding The Box of Moses

I wonder what we have here?

It feels old, heavy, powerful

Give that back man

What an asshole

Seriously, give that back to me

NOW

Its fine, he cant open it

Oh, Cant I?

No Lock can stop Chris Angel!

You don't know what you are doing


Let him do it, Fuck this guy


Put it down man

DO NOT OPEN THAT BOX

I think I will

For the sake of your soul

DO NOT OPEN IT

Open it, pussy

Dude!


Chris Angel Studies the box intensely

The focus of his eyeliner ringed gaze is HOT

Moses steps forward and pounds his Staff into the ground

The skies darken and the ancient wood transfigures to a living serpent


OH SHIT! yells the crowd in excitement

So many snapchats, a hotspot registers on the Snapchat social media map


Put it down! Now.

This is your last warning

Open the box, pussy

Goddamnit!

Chris Angel looks up from the box

I see this is important to you

Ill give it back

Thank you

BOOOO

Dude, just shut the fuck up

This is important


Chris Angel stretches his arms out and offers the box to Moses


PSYCH!

He yanks it back out of reach

Slaps the top

DO NOT

Whaps the Side

OPEN THAT

OOOOO SHIIT HERE WE GO

Flicks the lock with a dose of razzle and dazzle


ITS THE ARK OF THE COVENA...







It was too late


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Indiana Jones got it Right

A torrent of divine light erupts from the ancient chest

Spooky ghosts come streaming out, melting the faces of everyone in the crowd

Chris Angel protects himself for a moment, shielding his mortality with a barrier of magic

The blinding light becomes even blindy-er

Chris Angel's Nailpolish starts to chip and flake in the wake of power

His barrier fails and his face melts too

He flakes away in a handful of dust, leaving behind nothing but a pair of 30x38 black skinny jeans



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AH Jesus man

Moses eyes the scene with horror


Quick, grab their watches, lets get out of here!



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Why did you encourage him?

Man fuck that guy, he had it coming

It wasnt just him, God.

A lot of people just died

Ill make more

Can you? Some turd in skinny jeans just made an ass out of you

Well actually you made an ass out of you, but how did you get served by some mascara magician?


I dont know man, somethings wrong with my powers

I can only seem to make snap bunnies

God Snaps and a BunBun sits in his lap

Of course

MY FUCKING LUCK

When I actually need you

You cant do shit to help me

I can help!

How? Bunnies aint gonna fix me bud

I have cancer

Mysterious Ways

Sigh

I work in Mysterious Ways

Ye, I get that man

Just Keep the Faith and God will sort it out

But we have a different relationship, i'm not just another believer

I served you, I helped you people, I helped the world

I need a real miracle, I cant wait. They say i have less than 6 months

No, I work at Mysterious Ways - its a Magic Shop on 3rd.

The boss likes me. I could probably get you a job. $15.hr to start.

Im looking at $100,000 for a base level treatment, God

Thats not going to cut it

I dont know what to tell you man

Sucks dude

Ya it fucking sucks. You know what else sucks?

The Almighty, the Man Ive served for thousands of years

Is acting like a real piece of shit

What are you even doing here?

The Worlds on Fire

Your Son sits in Prison.

Go find your son!

Quit skirting your responsiblity and Man the Fuck up, God.

Thats what im trying to do!

But the for-profit prison is getting rid of in-person visits

They claim its to clamp down on contraband

They only allow video calls and charge $2 a minute

Jesus doesnt want to talk to me anyway

He makes $0.22 an hour cleaning litter in a chain-gain on the highway, he's not about to waste a days work for a minute with me


You are goddamn God Almighty

Just go Get him


I dont even know if hes actually my kid.

I mean he just showed up one day, saying he is, but what if hes not?

Whethere he is or is not is not the point. Hes a good kid. He did a lot of great things. He helped to teach the world an important message of compassion and understanding. Whether he is the son of god or not, you owe him your help. You created this whole damn thing. You need to start taking responsibility, God.

But I am so tired

You know what

Fuck you, fuck your box, fuck your mysterious ways

Im done. You hear me? I am done

Moses Grabs his Staff

What about the Ark of The Covenant?

Fuckoff


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They used to call me Hero

he eyed the clumps of hair in the drain

They listened to me, respected me

the tap streams steady

I did it all for THEM. For HIM.

scalp lathered in rich cream

I gave it all in a War forgotten

The Water is Warm

My sacrifice, forgotten

The Blade is Cool

My life, forgotten

Moses took the choice before cancer took it from him

My whole life in the service of mankind. In service of Justice and Freedom.

In Service of Him.

Put my body, my heart, my soul on the line.

Led the people, fought for the people, gave it all for the people

And now they think me Nothing. No one. Nobody.

Cast aside to be the dying old Man.

My journey hollowed, my sacrifice emptied. Why?

I am abandoned by the people I served

But I will make them remember

Moses stared himself in the eyes thru the mirrors reflection. A thin knick of blood adorned the top of his shaved skull. His eyes were yellowed from the sickness, but his gaze was steady, resolved, unshakable. Moses made a new Covenant. A pact with himself

“I will make them Remember everything.”

There is life in me yet.


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